Holding pattern

Our weekend full of family fun was fantastic!  (Pics to come soon)  My mom and I got to spend Friday together getting necessary errands completed, talking, eating Famous Joe's pizza and salad, and just spending quality time together.  Dad and Steven joined us and we saw the movie Water for Elephants.  We ate at Red Rock, Cheesecake Factory, Iron Star BBQ, and Charleston's.  On Easter Sunday, the rain finally came.  We got to church and the electricity was off!  So we started out the service with candlelight.  One of our pastor's, Jay, said a prayer to start off the service and in perfect timing... after the amen... the lights came back on and service went on as usual.  The service was a celebration of the Jesus' resurrection.  Victory is His and ours!  On that day he "disarmed the rulers and authorities (evil of the world) and put them to open shame" (Col 2:15).  Took their weapons right from them!  You know when you're worshipping or reading Scripture (or watching Carrie Underwood sing how great thou art) and you get the chills?  I wonder if the chills are just the Holy Spirit brushing by you.  Many times I think that's true.  Favorite hymn of Sunday:  "Because he lives, I can face tomorrow, because he lives all fear is gone, because I know who holds the future, my life is worth the living just because he lives."  After church we took my parents to the airport, then went to my sister-in-law's house for a WONDERFUL time of fellowship and food with Steven's side of the family!  Loved every minute.

So the MCAT is less than a month away!  It is getting R.E.A.L.  This is such an different/weird time in my life.    There is so much to do yet it also feels like I am waiting in a holding pattern.  Like planes that are told not to land yet, they circle the airport in a holding pattern till they get the okay to land.  There is so much left to fall into place.  MCAT score, application, interviews, what school and city we'll end up in, etc.  Steven and I and just waiting for each step to reveal itself.  Each one affects the next.
This morning I read from John 15.  Jesus says, "Abide in me, and I in you.  As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me.  I am the vine; you are the branches.  Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing."
A branch cannot bear fruit by itself... apart from me you can do nothing...  I COMPLETELY realize that in all my life and especially with what I am facing right now, I cannot do any of it on my own and with my own power.  I am far from capable.  He goes on to say in John 15, "These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full."  I hope I abide in him so closely that my "ought to's" and "want to's" are one in the same.
I continue to hope and pray for his help.  I will try to abide in Him, always.